the day when xOnlyYOU die..
as the heart is being broken into pieces..
the master oso die with it..
wat happen?
my dear maple kor..
my most <3 Kor reply a "ya" to me..
causing thunder to my heart..
n wat did i send him..
"Chou bibobibo..u haven install back yr maple rite?lol..don even wan sms me..duwan dis mei liao arhx"
this is wat i send to him..
i cried on the spot once i receive the sms..
nv felt dis pain b4 though..
although is oni maple..
but i treat relationship in maple like real life..
n somemore..
bibobibo is my fav kor in maple...
isit tt i am too naggy?
i juz wan someone to tok to..
caz i m always alone..
this pain is even painer than a bf leaving me..
as i tell my frens..
i don mind having a dar in maple..
caz
i got my FAMILY..
tt is enuff for me..
but it seems like the FAMILY is breaking..
as i type dis post..
tears rolled down my cheeks..
whether to believe or not is yr choice..
my fren sure say i insane..
cry caz of dis little tinks..
to her is little..
but to me..
a 2-letter word created a thunderstorm inside me..
whirling my heart into pieces..
recalling the past makes me cry even more..
nobody likes me..
i know tt..
from young..
who can i blame?
nobody..
this is my fate..
i am borned to be dislike by everyone..
caz of my fatness n ugliness..
is not tt i wan to be fat..
i was borned with the fat..
lol..
i wish tt once i sleep..
all the sad memories will be buried for a period of time..
until i wake up..
or should i 4eva stay in my dream..
whr FAMILY is playing happily inside maple..
haha..
hunting items tgt..
like decorating christmas tree..
the part tt i love most..
is the part whr the hallowee event in maple.
haha..
helping mei to get the hat n mask..
i wish tt i nv wake up..
caz once i wake up..
the pain will come bck to me agn..
i cant escape from it..
unless miracle happen..
maybe i should change my hp n desktop pic..
haha..
both pic is my maple FAMILY..
now tt the FAMILY is under-going some problems..
it may nv be cured..
today was like the end of the world for me..
heaven wan me to be alone for the whole life..
then so be it..
wat can i do..
this is my destiny..
quarreling with my yh jiejie today..
she say i am petty..
i admit..
but is caz she is my BEST fren i ever have..
a person who accept me as who i am..
n a fren tt i treat her realli like jiejie..
although she is younger..
i have been 4giving her for the past few quarrels..
dis time i duno wat to do..
maybe i should juz shut up my mouth..
or cut away my fingers..
so tt i wont tok or sms..
then nobody will ever bother me..
make me deaf so as not to hear other ppl's teasing..
make me blind so as not to see wat espressions other ppl is looking @ me..
make me handicapped so as not to cr8 troubles n naggyness for my frens..
make me mute so as not to say anytink tt make ppl dislike me..
all dis sure can make me leave in my own world..
no ppl will attend my funeral if i die in the future..
haha..
my heart is totally closed for now..
no mood for anytink..
let me be isolated in my own free space..
my own dispersed pieces of heart...
.HISTORY *